"ImmoralMinority" (araimondo)
01/25/2019 at 10:48 • Filed to: None
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"ImmoralMinority" (araimondo)
01/25/2019 at 10:48 • Filed to: None | 4
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I’m going home.
I have to go into the office and do a couple of hours of administrative work, and then I am going to hang out with my dog. He and I have been very attached since he joined our family, and I realize that the bond has gotten closer since my heart attack, for whatever reason. This couple of days has made me realize that I need to make more of an effort to take him with me when I travel. I am a bit embarrassed to admit that I find myself fighting a bit of loneliness and depression without our intertwined daily routines
There are weird side effects from the heart attack that I haven’t really talked about. The most noticeable and weird is that I have developed an intense fear of heights that I never had before. I was terrified when I crossed the bridge at the San Joaquin River Gorge, which was when I really noticed it.
As you can see, the bridge is very secure and had I railings. But I was gripped by a terrible and irrational fear while crossing it. It was difficult and awful and it disturbed me. I made myself do it.
I noticed it again when I went skiing with my family; the lifts were really difficult for me. I have been skiing for over 40 years and I have never had such a problem. I found it upsetting. Someone with a better understanding of the human brain would have to explain to me why this is happening.
Nibby
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 10:49 |
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TheRealBicycleBuck
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:07 |
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OPPOsaurus WRX
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:10 |
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it aint Friday til the farside posts start rolling around.
you skipped the worst side effect of a heart attack - being dead, so i’d take being afraid of heights any day
Svend
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:18 |
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Nothing to be embarrassed about or irrational , being afraid of heights .
Since the heart attack you are more aware of the alternative and your self preservation has been heightened.
Toby has been by your side for as long as I’ve known you on here.
Since the heart attack that bond has gotten stronger because you both acknowle dge you are each others family. You both rely on each other for company while away from the rest of the f amily, security and emotional support.
farscythe - makin da cawfee!
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:26 |
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happy friday mate
have a safe trip home
Highlander-Datsuns are Forever
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:29 |
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There are six ski lifts at our Mountain that I regularly ride. There is one that scares the shit out of me. The others I could knit hats while rid ing up.
CaptDale - is secretly British
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 11:37 |
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There is no problem nee ding your friend and companion with you. Toby is a good boy and I am glad to have both of you as friends. Heights can be nerve wracking, but maybe it is something that will fade with time after the heart attack. You are still fresh off that boat.
Have a good Friday and a better weekend
Manwich - now Keto-Friendly
> ImmoralMinority
01/25/2019 at 12:25 |
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Yeah... that kind of thing can happen with traumatic life events.
For me, I tear up much more easily over certain things after my marriage ended.